Dad - coronavirus critical care and emotional torture.

Monday
Total world cases: 1914,371------------------- 96,394 increase
Total fatalities:  119,103-------------------------6,499 increase
UK total: 88,621-------------------------------4,342 increase
UK Fatalities: 11,329--------------------------- 717  increase

Tuesday
Total world cases: 1975,005------------------- 60,634 increase
Total fatalities:  124,792-------------------------5,689 increase
UK total: 93,873-------------------------------5,252 increase
UK Fatalities: 12,107--------------------------- 778  increase

So the figures are similar to every other day. The news was quite bizarre as far as the US is concerned- Sky News headline was - Coronavirus: 'The biggest meltdown ever' from a US president as Trump accused of trying to 'rewrite history'.  There was outrage really because rather than concentrate on the the people that are dying - Trump wanted to talk about how well he had done - when really he had not.  News channels even stopped showing the press release and CNN broadcast the news conference live but with accompanying graphics accusing the president of turning the briefing into "a propaganda session" and trying to "rewrite history".

I spent a lot of time this morning researching and writing my last post until our family group got a message off my sister Helen which said -
Hello everyone. I’ve just spoken to a Dr on the ward. Dad has worsened significantly today. Tests confirmed a severe COVID picture with pneumonia. This is despite antibiotics. 
They are moving him now to high dependency for c-pap for forced oxygen. 
He is currently stable. Sorry it’s not good news. 
Love to all xxx

I called Helen after seeing this and she said that the Dr had called her on my dads request (rather than call my mum) and he said that  now is the time to be cautious, that this morning there were problems with oxygen levels and signs of pneumonia.  He had worsened significantly, there was a  severe covid picture.  He had discussed his care with a critical care Dr and ventilation with incubation was not in his best interests and that CPAP is his best option but might not work.  Also - my Dad apparently agreed to a Do Not Resuscitate, if his heart stopped. 

Absolutely devastating news.   Helen then had to call my mum and tell her this news.  She said it was the most difficult conversation she had ever had.  My mum was understandably in pieces - saying she was never going to see him again and she was alone.  Both me and Helen were upset on the phone.  All I could think about was how my Dad would be scared, he would be so worried about my mum.  I got off the phone to Helen and tried calling my dad - hoping to catch him before he was transferred.  I got through and he sounded awful - not able to breath and I couldn't understand him. All I made out was him saying - I have to do this or I'll just fade away.  I then heard a nurse saying I need to put this on you - and the line went dead.  I hope to god (not that I believe in god) that, that was not the last I heard from my dad. 

This makes me so annoyed - that, although my dad is 79 - he had a lot of time left in him - possibly ten years - and this virus might take him away from us now.  It is not fair! I believe that my dad is strong and a fighter! I just have to hope that he can survive this!! I can't even contemplate the alternative. 

The rest of the day - Andy was just there for me - he fed me gin and tonics....we sat in the garden and discussed the injustice and how I believe that this virus was man made by the Chinese. 

Apparently the next 24-48 hours are crucial for my dad.  I am just hoping that later in the year, I'll share a bottle of red wine with my dad and reflect on his experience.  Please let me read back on this post with a smile because that is exactly what we do.

Coronavirus - man made?

Hi,

I've just watched a badly made documentary by The Epoch Times - maybe badly made because it was rushed.  If you can get past the ego of the reporter and all the egocentric shots of him - which I found really annoying - then what they are saying is scary.  In a nutshell a lab in Wuhan - where the outbreak started - were manipulating the coronavirus and made it so it would be much more infectious and much more deadly - in order to study it - and it looks like it got out, and then a massive cover up ensued.

I believe that this is true..  The Chinese Communist Party have a lot to answer for.  They have massive influence in the world and there are lots of evidence of them covering it up and having a lot of influence with the World Health Organisation.  The Chinese government didn't let the world know when this outbreak first happened - and did not close it's borders allowing it to spread across the world.  They want to be a world power and if I was cynical, I'd say it was intentional.  I am not cynical however, and I like to give people the benefit of the doubt, but I do believe that the Chinese  created the virus in a lab and did not contain it. 

This is what I can take from what I have read/watched...

When looking at the origin of the virus - the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) said the virus started spontaneously in a seafood market in Wuham, China.  It includes pork and game.  It was December 31st 2019 - that it was stated that there were cases of unknown pneumonia and the seafood market.  They said that there was no obvious evidence of human to human transmission. 

In January - a paper was published questioning if the virus really did start at this market - 14 of 41 patients had no connection at all to the market.  No bats were found at this market either - and it was thought that the virus originates from bats.  Judy Mikovits, a molecular biologist and former director of the Lab of antiviral mechanisms in New York - said the idea of the spread so fast through the seafood market is highly unlikely and un-probable.  She claimed that this was a cover-up - that saying that the source was this market was simply to hide where it actually came from. 

The CCP tried to cover up the existence of the virus until it was impossible to cover it up.

On January 10th 2020 China released the full genome sequence of the corona-virus and the worlds top virologists began to analyse it.  It was stated that the virus closely resembled two viruses sampled from bats.  This bat virus has been discovered in 2018 - its was a Sars like coronavirus (please remember - this is just me trying to understand and simplify what I am reading - and I don't have a clue about these things!)  The current virus had a high similarity (87%) to this sars-like virus found in bats.  There was a 100% amino acid similarity - which would suggest that it had been reverse engineered.  Obviously - here I don't have a clue - I should just say that scientist found something in the virus that could not have happened naturally.   Judy Mikovits said this almost certainly had to be laboratory driven.  The parts of the virus (under microscope) called the spike proteins (or S proteins) is what enables the virus to invade human cells - this was found on the Sars virus.  It is what allows it to enter the human body - it wasn't found on coronavirus originally so it must have been manipulated in a lab - giving the coronavirus this S protein from the sar virus so that it could now enter the human body.  So it could not have come from the sea food market. 

Labs in China which were studying and releasing info about the coronavirus were ordered to close, including the one that released the genome sequence - they had released this information because they were ignored when they suggested prevention measures.  The Chinese government ordered that all samples were destroyed and all related papers and data were prohibited from release.  So the CCP were censoring information about the coronavirus.  They were responsible for the continuation of the virus by not doing anything at first and stopping the release of information about it.

A Chinese virologist Shi Zhengli, was key in the study of the coronavirus, she spent many years studying bats and coronavirus', she was based in Wuhan where the virus was first detected.  Coincidence?  She published a paper in 2015 concerning her own research into synthetic viruses.  She had been studying the sars virus and coronavirus in a very sophisticated lab.  From 2010 she has been studying the capacity of the coronavirus to cross from bats to humans, specifically looking at the S protein.  She "unearthed the passageway from coronavirus to the human body".  In 2013 she claimed a breakthrough - she successfully isolated three coronaviruses from bats, one of which has S proteins that integrated with human receptors. In 2015 she released another paper in which she discussed a synthetic sars virus with the s protein replaced by the one she had identified that could integrate with the human receptors.  This new virus which she had made could cross from one species to another. Mice developed severe lung damage with no cure.  She had successfully spliced the SARS virus and opened the door to cross-species transmission. 

In my language - she took a SARS virus and added something very dangerous to it - making it able to transmit to humans - whereas it couldn't do that before. 

She planned to infect primates to see what effect it would have on humans.  Other scientists expressed deep concerns about this - saying if this new virus escaped - nobody knew what might happen.  Apparently research suggests that what we now have, is the result of cutting and pasting the two viruses.  It is thought that it could not possibly have occurred naturally. 

Shi Zhengli's research continued - she published a paper on bat coronavirus and cross species infection - but this research has since been deleted (covered up?) In 2014 the US stopped funding into Shi Zhengli's (and similar) research concerning genetic engineering the coronavirus. 

Why would you want to create a coronavirus that could infect humans? It could be for a weapon? It could be so you can create a vaccine - that only you could create in order to make a lot of money?

China tried to state that the US sent the virus to China! This was when president Trump started to call it the Chinese virus. 

China have said that the virus must have come from bats.  The outbreak however started in Wuham where Shi Zhengli and her lab was based!  You would think that they would look to that lab for any potential breach - allowing the virus to escape - but what happened was that they shifted focus to the sea food market - that did not even have any bats.  If it did occur naturally why was there such a cover up? why was the scientist who brought it all to the attention of the world get arrested? others went missing....samples were destroyed etc.

Shi Zhengli's lab stayed very quiet at this time - and they were the experts!  All staff at the lab had been told in an email not to disclose anything concerning the coronavirus.  In February 2020 a whistle blower said that Shi Zhengli and her haphazard lab could have led to the outbreak.  Another whistle blower made similar claims - that the lab was suspected of manufacturing and leaking the virus.  Then, China's top biochemical weapons expert in china took over the lab.  Another whistle blower then said that director general of the institute (the lab) was suspected of releasing the virus. 

The french were apparently supposed to be working with china to open this lab but had concerns because China's military were suspected to be involved.  When the lab opened in 2017 the french said they had security concerns that they were working on biochemical weapon experiments. 

So - this is my understanding - and my belief - that this was all created in a lab.  I have just had bad news about my dad so I am going to stop here. 

Easter with no eggs....

Sunday
Total world cases: 1817,977-------------------65,547 increase
Total fatalities:  112,604-------------------------5,347 increase
UK total: 84,279-------------------------------5,288 increase
UK Fatalities: 10,612---------------------------  737 increase

Monday
Total world cases: 1914,371------------------- 96,394 increase
Total fatalities:  119,103-------------------------6,499 increase
UK total: 88,621-------------------------------4,342 increase
UK Fatalities: 11,329--------------------------- 717  increase

Today in the news - lock down is not going to end yet - initially the government said they would review it after three weeks - and today is 3 weeks.  I think they are avoiding saying exactly how much longer it will have to go on because some people might say - hell no! I can't continue like this that long!  But I think it is going to have to be another 3 weeks or so....we have yet to reach the peak apparently.

The government are being accused of not being transparent because they said Boris Johnson was being moved to intensive care as a precaution - but now, as Boris leaves hospital he says his life was in the balance.   I said on this blog - that my sister said it was outrageous that he'd take up an intensive care bed as a precaution - but that me and Paul - thought that they were playing it down.  I don't think we can really criticise the government.  They probably would have faced some other sort of criticism if they had said how bad he was....anyway....I'm glad he is okay!

In other news - the US has had massive amount of cases and deaths - and they're are still saying we might end up the hardest hit European Country.

Helen called me and we had a really long chat - or therapy session!  She had obviously called me with the intention of giving me some kind of therapy, which I very much appreciated.  Me and Andy started the day by talking about how messed up our lives are and how bad it could get - he has a very good chance of losing his job - so we were talking how we might cope.  Andy has been my rock so far but today things had got to him - unsurprisingly!!  We both ended up very much doom and gloom - so when Helen called - we went through different worries - and the ones we could or couldn't do anything about.  How it was not good to worry about things we have no control over - plan maybe... We also spoke about being compassionate towards yourself! She explained that we are harder on ourselves than we are towards other people.  We also spoke about self care - and setting small goals each day.  I found it very helpful. I really appreciated the fact that she took the time out to call me and try and help me cope - especially when she has all her own worries and stresses (as everybody in the world does right now!) 

I had a quick chat with Dad - who told me he was eating a yogurt but when I said I'd call back he said Paul was calling him back - we chatted for a few minutes - then he said - Paul is calling - and put the phone down on me! hahaha.  This might not have been intentional - but I didn't mind either way!!

Later in the family group messenger - Helen updated us as she had spoken to a Doctor at the hospital who said

Hi everybody, I’ve spoken to a Dr today who said that dad’s dependency on oxygen reduced slightly over the weekend but he appears to have a bacterial chest infection so they have just started him on some more IV antibiotics. 
Also, dad has some underlying airways disease which is why it has been taking him longer to recover. Probably due to smoking. 

So - slightly good news and some quite worrying information.

On Helen's advice I had a nice long bath - later I was really bad an suggested we get take-out again - it wasn't great and I ended up with heart burn!