not feeling great

Monday
Total world cases: 1333,085-------------------174,155 increase - 2 days
Total fatalities:  74,182-------------------------12,368 increase - 2 days
UK total: 51,608---------------------------------9,705 increase - 2 days
UK Fatalities: 5,373---------------------------  1060 increase - 2 days

Tuesday
Total world cases: 1420,828-------------------87,743 increase
Total fatalities:  81,691-------------------------7,509 increase
UK total: 55,252---------------------------------3,644 increase
UK Fatalities: 6,159---------------------------  786 increase

Hi.

So I woke up at 7am as usual - not getting enough sleep.  I came downstairs and got a coffee etc. and then was so tired I slept on the couch - after a while I thought I'd just go to bed and I slept again - over 10 hours sleep.  I was still really tired.  Paranoia started to set in that I had the virus, even Andy was staying away from me.  I got out of bed about 5pm - and felt better and thought that I don't have the virus at all.  It is now 10.30pm and I'm knackered and back off to bed again!!

It is not normal - how tired I am and not like me at all - I think it might be stress.  I've been struggling to breath too - but again I think that is stress. Never before I have felt stress physiologically but thinking about it - there is a world pandemic killing lots of people, my dad is in hospital in a pretty serious condition, I am starting a new job and my daughter and daughter-in-law are pregnant and expecting babies in the middle of it all - so it's not surprising that stress levels are high!

Earlier it really felt like I was coming down with something - but now I don't believe so - I'll see how I feel tomorrow.

Covid-19, Dad in Hosp and New Job

Well - I will start with figures - I messed up and missed Sunday!

Saturday
Total world cases: 1158,930-------------------75,629 increase
Total fatalities:  61,814-------------------------3,502 increase
UK total: 41,903---------------------------------3,735 increase
UK Fatalities: 4,313---------------------------  708 increase

Sunday
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Monday
Total world cases: 1333,085-------------------174,155 increase - 2 days
Total fatalities:  74,182-------------------------12,368 increase - 2 days
UK total: 51,608---------------------------------9,705 increase - 2 days
UK Fatalities: 5,373---------------------------  1060 increase - 2 days

Headlines today - Boris Johnson, the Prime Minister is in intensive care.  They say this is a precaution.  My sister Helen thinks that this is outrageous - that he should take an intensive care bed as a precaution - whereas me and Paul think they are playing it down and if he is in intensive care - he needs to be there!  I think it is awful that he is so ill.  We need a leader right now and I think Boris Johnson has become much more popular since all this started.  I certainly think more of him - he has a Winston Churchill kind of presence - getting us through this difficult time.  I really hope he is okay.

My dad is doing okay - I think.  I did a video call with him yesterday - he actually called me accidentally - trying to take a pic and put it on facebook!  He hadn't been able to get on facebook - but I figured that out for him!  It was good to see his face!!  He looks better than I expected thankfully.  He put a pic on FB and I shared it - and it has had loads of responses.  I think this is because - although we hear loads about people being ill and dying - not many of us (it seems) knows somebody really struggling with it.  So when I put on FB that my dad was in hospital - loads of people reacted - and it was really really nice - and I appreciate everybody who has commented on my post - and my Dads.

My Dad told me that he had watched our video - of us dancing in the garden (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Is36k5I-El4) - he laughed about out outtakes - it was the first time I have heard him properly laugh in all the calls that I have had with him - I think getting on FB has made a big difference to him - or even better - it is a sign that he is getting better.  Today he is due a chest x-ray - this makes me nervous - and I really hope we get good news about this....

So - I went to work (not training) for the first time yesterday - I met my line manager and a few people on the team.  It all looks good!  I liked all the people I met - they seem to have a good working relationship, good banter!  I could not get onto most of their computer systems though so there was very little I could do.  I had a chat with my line manager - and we spoke about my previous experience - and I think he is pleased that I have come to him pretty much knowing what I am doing - just need to not mess up now I've bigged myself up lol.  Thank god (not literally) I was allowed to leave early due to not being able to actually do anything useful at the moment and I was so relieved because I was knackered really early and very bored....the place was very empty because of the lockdown and ppl working from home - something I was hoping for but am not really going to be able to do because I need guidance right now...

I now have 2 days off! I'm back at 8am Thursday - then its bank holiday - then I am back in at the weekend.  I am actually looking forward to getting some actual work to do - I think - it depends what they give me!