Saturday Night

Friday
Total world cases: 2,826,032-------------------111,296  increase
Total fatalities:  197,034-------------------------6,741 increase
UK total: 143,464-------------------------------5,386 increase
UK Fatalities: 19,506---------------------------768 increase

Saturday
Total world cases: 2,909,614-------------------83,582  increase
Total fatalities:  202,802-------------------------5,768 increase
UK total: 148,377-------------------------------4,913 increase
UK Fatalities: 20,319---------------------------813 increase

So today the UK hit 20,000 deaths.  At the beginning of this our government said we'd be lucky to stay under 20,000 deaths - I might have mentioned it here - and I don't remember what I said about it then, but I remember thinking - wow!  But this whole thing turned into much more of a nightmare than I ever thought it would.  I remember thinking - oh god, if my Dad catches it, he won't survive.  I don't know if I really thought that - if I really considered it a real possibility.  How cruel it was to end for him this way for him - I still can't really believe it.  Every time I see the figures, I can't help thinking how one of those was my Dad and it makes me feel a mixture of anger and sorrow as well as many other emotions and almost, like a confusion...how?? why?? NO!! It can't have happened really!

Today, I haven't really allowed myself to think about it, and I've remained in a fairly good mood.  That seems weird to me - how can I be okay? But - I've just blocked it out for a while.  I've been avoiding thinking about the funeral - because will be very real, too real and too horrible.  Dreading it.

The deaths today seem high to me - especially as 'they' said that the weekend figures are lower because the people reporting are not at work.  I just wish it would stop! Just go away!!  The madness is unbearable...

I think maybe the misery is catching up with me after a positive day.  Helen has been really down today - very emotional.  She says she's tired, or hormonal - but I think it is all catching up on her after keeping really busy and driven to sort everything out for my mum.  She has her kids at home so she probably feels guilty about that too and she is stressing about the Eulogy - but we are going to sit down together tomorrow and sort it out.

Today Andrew (my brother) and his wife Lorna and their 4 kids came around - they stood outside of the garden - with us inside - and we chatted for a good hour or so in the sunshine.  That was nice to see them all...

My mum mentioned today the 3 pictures that she has on her phone - she took them the day my dad died - he was is a state with a huge mask on - and I told her that I don't want to see those pictures again, and she said why? because I don't want to remember him like that! Part of me does want to see them again - almost like I want to feel the anguish....I don't know.....its a confusing time.  I don't want to ever think about him like that - why would I want to see a picture of it.  My mum said - but its the last time I ever saw him! I think she will feel the same as I do about it soon.  Who knows?

I'm rambling.

We didn't really do much for the rest of the day - had tea...watched TV....looked through some more old photo's....

Its a little bit like Groundhog day...each day so similar to the last....same thing on the news everyday, same routine, weekdays and weekends are exactly the same.  We are like a very small all-female commune!  The three of us together, doing chores and tasks, walking dogs, making meals, sitting in front of the TV in the evening and getting to bed early....its like I'm in a strange, unfamiliar - but getting to feel more familiar - bubble.

Anyway - changing the subject - I was informed that my blog is in the top 100 lifestyle blogs with a website called feedspot.  https://blog.feedspot.com/uk_lifestyle_blogs/

I do not know much about this website and haven't had much of a chance to have a proper look at it - but I will eventually.  If people are reading my blog I'd love to hear from you in the 'comments'.

I need to get to sleep - ready for my early morning wake-up call from my mums dogs!

Goodnight xx

Saturday Morning

Hi - so I went to bed last night without writing the blog - but I did manage to get the figures for yesterday....

Thursday
Total world cases: 2,714,736------------------- 81,504 increase
Total fatalities:  190,293-------------------------6,468 increase
UK total: 138,078-------------------------------4,583 increase
UK Fatalities: 18,738---------------------------638 increase

Friday
Total world cases: 2,826,032-------------------111,296  increase
Total fatalities:  197,034-------------------------6,741 increase
UK total: 143,464-------------------------------5,386 increase
UK Fatalities: 19,506---------------------------768 increase

It was reported that the death rate figures in the UK are reducing.  Hard to see really when it is always so many still....

Also in the news - thousands of home testing kits were made available to essential workers and their families - you had to apply online and they were gone within an hour.  It only tests if you have it - not the anti-body test like I assumed, so not sure how helpful that will be - better than nothing I assume with people finding out they have it when they had no idea as there are supposedly so many people with no symptoms.

President Trump seems to be a complete ass.  On Thursday he spoke about injecting disinfectant into the body to cure coronavirus (which would actually kill you!) he asked medical experts to look into it.  Then on Friday he claimed that he "was asking a question sarcastically to reporters like you just to see what would happen."  Who does that? People with the virus who were scared may have done this and killed themselves!  He is such an idiot.

Here's what Trump said Thursday while looking in the direction of coronavirus response coordinator Dr. Deborah Birx and Department of Homeland Security science official Bill Bryan: "And then I see the disinfectant, where it knocks it out in a minute. One minute. And is there a way we can do something like that, by injection inside or almost a cleaning. Because you see it gets in the lungs and it does a tremendous number on the lungs. So it would be interesting to check that. So, that, you're going to have to use medical doctors with. But it sounds -- it sounds interesting to me."

So - yesterday - same as usual really, went walking with the dogs in the sun, had lunch outside - I am having so much trouble with Airbnb - we have had a guest for a week now - who hasn't manage to book or pay yet because Airbnb have blocked my calendar and they are supposed to unblock for the medical profession - and they can't seem to do it, so I wasted a lot of time on chat to them and nothing was achieved.  This morning our guest tried to book later dates where it is not unblocked but airbnb want to charge her a £100 service fee.  If they sorted it out properly, with our guest as a key worker they would waive their fees.  It makes me wonder if it is the loss of their fees that is making it so difficult to sort it out.  So its an ongoing very annoying problem.  If they don't sort it out today I am going to tweet about how they are letting health workers and host down....

So - yesterday we discussed getting online with Andy and Paul - for a 'get together' and I was really tired and Helen wasn't in the mood - but in the end I had a kip and Helen bucked up and we got online together and played Family Fortunes lol.  It was a good night actually - although we lost!  Mum watched a film as she didn't fancy it.  We had a drink but didn't get drunk so we were not feeling rough this morning which is awesome!

Last night Helen broke my mum's clipboard - she just lent on it - she claimed that she was going to blame me - and this morning - she actually did blame me!! Very convincingly!  I get in trouble for everything already as it is! Luckily she admitted it was her - although only after mum said it was cracked already!