I am not in such a good mood today - because my boss wrote a 6 month review about me and it was more than glowing all the way through...and then almost because he thought he should write something negative about me he said The only slightly negative thing I could say is that Sam is slightly disorganised in her day to day working
I think he is referring to a couple of occasions when I forgot to do something - and the rest of the time I am very organised at work! (much more so than at home! lol)
My boss saying that I am slightly disorganised in day to day work is so wide ranging! It could mean - getting in late, not making calls, being late for appointments, not answering emails, not getting back to people etc. etc. all of which I have no problem with whatsoever. Also - after all the really good stuff he says about me he finishes with this - and that's the only thing any reader of the report will remember - and the fact that I am changing roles next week and my new boss might read it is very worrying. I tried to tell him I didn't like it yesterday but I couldn't put my finger on what I wanted to say - I now know, but its awkward going back to him about it again. I don't want him to think that its simply a matter of not liking anything negative he says...I want him to be more specific - in which area am I not organised? saying in day to day work is not good enough and if he doesn't change it I am going to have to tick the 'Disagree' box rather than 'Agree' - and then explain why. This is stressing me out.
Anyway - on a different note - its my 40th birthday in May and people have been asking what I intend to do...
I would like to have a party...but I can really do it locally as most of my family and some friends are in Manchester, but if I have a party there some people I would invite wont go because its too far away - and visa versa - either way I'll look a bit like billy-no-mates! Not that I do have a wide circle of friends anyway! (which is why it would be better if everyone come come).
I have been looking at places in Manchester - and asking my family for suggestions and up to now I have had a suggestion which included they also have security on the door which helps! That's a bit disconcerting! Another place, I thought might be suitable is listed online as a 1 star hotel...hmmm
So I'm struggling to make a decision about what to do - its stressful having a party and organising it - but at the same time I don't want to do nothing!
On a completely different note - I have an appointment tomorrow...I might embark on something scary...I haven't decided whether to talk about this openly or not - I might decide after tomorrow....
Today being a Monday is weigh-in day! I had a rant a week or two ago that I worked so hard and only lost 1/2lb...I also had a rant on the website I use to track my food/calories/exercise/progress etc. and I got feedback off other dieters - mainly telling me that I wasn't eating enough and if I worked off 500 calories in the gym I should eat an extra 500 calories - I thought this defeated the object however - I was given this link:
This article was brilliant! and so I increased the amount I eat - which is no heartache!! lol and this week I lost..........2lb!!
So since January I have lost 7lb...its just a shame I'm still nowhere near what I was just last year...anyway - a long way to go but I'm determined to plod on and lose loads o weight!
Right - I have to go to work soon and face my boss with my complaint....better get ready...
