Jan 5th 2019

Hi

It is Saturday morning - I woke up at 9.15am - but I still feel really tired.  I am sat in my PJ's in the kitchen with my laptop - with a gingerbread latte, and tissues as I still have the cold that caused us to cancel going to Helen and Pauls and New Years Eve.  We were supposed to go to their house last night instead - but Helen had a migraine...so we should be going tonight.  We always have a good time but atm I am not looking forward to it because it is effort! That's just me being really lazy however and I know I will be glad I went.

I know this blog in the past has been full of my obsession with my weight and fitness - but I need to go on about it again!  I am soooo heavy - I look terrible in all my clothes - coupled with getting older I am looking like an old frump.  What happened to my motivation? why isn't the mirror motivation enough?  Why I am such a glutton? It needs to stop....but I tell myself this everyday and then no doubt that evening I will sabotage any efforts I have made during the day.  I know I can do it if I put my mind to it - as well as get fit - start running again....

This morning - I did 10 x crunches, squats and push-ups.  I intend to increase this by 1 each day - this does not require the gym - I can do it next to my bed.  Its nothing and took minutes but if I can continue that I know I will be pleased when I get to 30 or something. 

RIGHT - I am gonna get this weekend over with (H&P's tonight and Stuart coming round tomorrow night for the football - and I'm making macaroni cheese!) and THEN I am going to remind myself how disciplined I can be!!  I am going to stay within my calories, get exercise, not drink alcohol during the week. I need to find recipes and healthy nice things to eat because this is mostly where I fall down.  I need to get rid of the crap in the house so I can't eat it - and if I can I need to try and influence Andy to do it with me!

I think I should find some exercise classes to go to - but last time I looked around here they were so expensive - like £7 a class.  Maybe it has just been so long since I had to pay for a class that this is just normal.....it'd be great to have classes to go to that I enjoy and become routine....I'm going to have a look now...

Okay - just spent about an hour having a looksy - and I can see that there are the kind of classes I would like at Blackbrook Leisure Centre - about 15 minutes away.  I have booked myself in for a Step Aerobics class on Monday at 18.40pm - £6.50!

I have also found another gym - uses the same log-in details - and it is closer - less classes but still the kinda stuff I'd like to do....called Wellsprings leisure centre.  Full Membership is £58 a month - which I cannot afford and do not want - this would cover 9 classes a month, and I don't think I'd ever do more than 2 a week so it is not worth it - especially as I have a gym of my own - although I don't have a swimming pool....yet lol.

It is now 11.23am - Andy is still in bed lol...I am still in my PJ's...but I feel better that I have booked a class - I am hoping that this is the begining of me getting my act together.