Saturday/Sunday

Friday
Total world cases: 3,388,235-------------------  84,645 increase
Total fatalities:  238,935------------------------- 5,226 increase
UK total: 177,454-------------------------------  6,201 increase
UK Fatalities: 27,510--------------------------- 739 increase

Saturday
Total world cases: 3,465,665------------------- 77,430  increase
Total fatalities:  243,747------------------------- 4,812 increase
UK total: 182,260-------------------------------  4,806 increase
UK Fatalities: 28,131--------------------------- 621 increase

Sunday
Total world cases: 3,554,549-------------------  88,884 increase
Total fatalities:  247,604------------------------- 3,857 increase
UK total: 186,599-------------------------------  4,339 increase
UK Fatalities: 28,446--------------------------- 315 increase

The UK is almost at 30,000 deaths - and to think we were horrified when the Government mentioned a figure of 20,000 at the beginning of all this.  There is a lot of discussion about why the UK is one of the highest hit countries in the world.  Only the US and Italy are ahead of us - and Italy is barely ahead...  If we had locked down a week earlier = not only would we have saved lots of people - but we almost certainly have not lost my Dad.  That is tough to accept.  However, hindsight is a wonderful thing - I have to tell myself that our Government did the very best they could in unprecedented circumstances. 

Three days ago President Trump said that he had seen evidence that the virus has originated from a Wuhan lab - and yesterday Pompeo (the secretary of State in the US) also said that he thought that the virus was made made in a Wuhan lab.  This has been my thinking all along, and I wrote a long post about it on 14th April 2020 - but obviously I don't know the truth.  If it is true then it is tragic - tragic to think this could all have been avoided and human error (or even human intent) caused all of this chaos and destruction.  Who knows what will happen if it is proven - war with China? This would be catastrophic....

 Anyway - this weekend - Saturday me and Andy went out for a walk.  I have been concerned about Andy not having left the house for 6 weeks - and was a little concerned that it might turn into a really unhealthy, almost phobia....he would disagree - he is just being sensible and following advice and understandably he is concerned about catching the virus as it could be a death sentence.  So - we went out to a local area, Netherclay - which is a few acres of greenery, paths....and the sun was out and it was nice - for both of us.  Mega paranoid when coming across other people, but everybody was staying away from everybody else.

Later that evening, we were having a few drinks - we ordered pizza - and at some point I started talking about my dad - and I opened the dam.  I properly cried, about the loss, the injustice, the suffering he endured, the unfairness...I allowed myself to really feel it.  Andy was great - let me just cry whilst being supportive...I eventually calmed down.  I think I needed to do that - but unfortunately having done it - doesn't make all those feeling go away.

Sunday - I got up early yet again - I am still not getting a good and full nights sleep.  I just, well did nothing really - until Andy got up - and then we made some food - some very yummy scrambled egg and sausage bagels, and then we got ready and went out for a walk again.  This time we walked further to another area - Longmead - where I used to do a 5km park run.  It was really nice to get out - feel like we were getting some exercise even though we were only walking.  We were out over an hour - walked around 5km, and on the way back bought a butternut squash plant and a sweet pepper plant from somebody who had just left them outside their house with prices on.  This isn't a new thing that this person is doing - I noticed last year that they were selling pumpkins and other things.

When we got home - I video called my mum and we chatted for quite a while - she is doing okay - keeping busy.  She has made some face masks - and because I came back with material to do the same I expect she will nag me until I make some too!  I then went and had a bath....something I have been longing to do for ages.  I ended up just sat there though feeling quite depressed....

We didn't really eat a meal - we snacked on nuts and snacks and sweets....not great.  I need to get a routine going, start cleaning, washing, making proper meals...